Felt like writing something after ages today. Its been a month since I posted last. No particular reason for this silence. Yes silence & not what people call the writer's block. I am not a writer. I am a reader who writes what she feels.
Now ME being silent is a big thing. Very big indeed. But contrary to popular belief I do I like being silent at times. "At times" being the key words here! ;)
Silence is not my default mode. But my system too does have that mode, its another thing that I don't let that mode to be activated often!
I love being silent when I am travelling with Shaina. We both love same kind of songs. And we listen to them, without saying a word to each other. For her its usual, you see she is a capricorn! But somehow at that moment, i just don't feel the need to talk. In fact, I think Shaina is the only person with whom I it can be silent! Capricorns oh Capricorns!!
I love being silent at times when I am going to gurgaon for my meetings. Most of these meetings are with my boss so we chat the whole way. But there are days when he talks less & I talk just a lil less than I otherwise do. With boss, I don't have to talk just for the heck of talking. Although he always listens to my non-stop yapping but I can afford to go silent in front of him, without the fear of having an awkward silence!
I love being silent when someone breaks my trust in small lil pieces and brings the pieces to me putting the message loud & clear. At such moments a short-tempered girl like me who can scream at small lil things wants to just be silent & walks away holding the brownie box tightly in my hands not saying a word. Some times words just fail you. Yes they do even fail me!
I love being silent when I listen to some of my favourite songs! Even if I have heard them hundred and ten times before! But i still listen to each word with equal fondness as the first time or should I say the second time.
I love being silent when I look at the moon. Moon is my favourite. It makes me feel calm & at peace. And when I look at a full moon, all I say is "its beautiful"! Yes shaina even if it looks artificial to you.
I love being silent, when certain people who make me feel overwhelmed are sitting right in front me. But since the overwhelming feeling fades out, so does the desire to be silent.
I love being silent when I am listening to people who make me happy. Really Happy. Even if they dont realise how happy I am when they talk and I listen. And even if they dont accept that they talk as much as I do! And probably better than I do. :)
And I love being silent when I want to be with just myself, like everyone else does. And if at such moments I am travelling alone or i am at a beach then nothing like it!
So silent mode is there but its rarely activated!! And yes even for a person like me, silence is golden!!!!! This reminds me of what I had once said to someone, "silence is golden, but not when the other person's system is on UPS". And I love being silent when I know that i wont ever say it again to someone else.
